Be mindful of your mercy, O Lord, and of your steadfast love, for they have been from of old. Psalm 25:6
Somehow original sin, that inner anguish and brokenness that is beyond our own doing, becomes the place where we touch our original blessing. Somehow our broken fathers, our limited mothers, our neurotic brothers, our confused sisters, and our own inner struggles work to create in us a hunger to move beyond our pain. “My soul is restless,” Augustine says, “until it rests in you O Lord.”
Once we approach intimacy with God dwelling within, and once we accept others and ourselves as we are, we may begin to speak about “happy guilt” or “happy brokenness.” The inner struggle is no longer such a burden, but a way to truth, to light, and to life. How is it possible to be children of God, embraced by Divine Love, and allowed into intimacy with the Creator of the Universe if God hadn’t already welcomed us, with compassion, just as we are? Through Jesus’ life on earth we come to know about the inner life of God. It is in our fragile and mortal flesh that God’s original blessing, God’s immense love, is revealed to us.
O Promise of the Ages, help me experience my original blessing and my happy brokenness and guilt.